every night's another story

you might use alcohol or drugs or long bubble baths to "solve your problems" but what gets me into a calm (or excited) state of mind is live music. nothing can ever replace something like this for me. i'll always have the same feeling, and i'll always have the same buzz after. with weeks like this past one (counting since friday, and *sigh* it's only monday..) it was a damn good idea to go to a show for me. i've been freaking out since friday about new health problems that have arisen and have scared the living daylights out of me, grades, the end of the year, and how i keep messing stuff up with everything i attempt to do right.

i remember the times where i got to concerts early so i could be in the front row because i fed off the energy of the performers, and i bounced the energy right back to them. i love everything from the crazy lights to the motions each musician makes according to their instrument. from the happy looks on their faces to the singing crowds. when i know the words to the songs everything seems to fall into place. i can't help but move to the beat. the song lives inside of me and it shakes me to my core (in a good way). i'll take a deep breath and everything's serene for just that moment. the music is in my face and i don't want it to leave. the energy-bounce is everything to a musician and to the crowd. the more energy, the more fun. the bass line is like your marionette puppet, guiding you, letting you jump or just feel the flow. the drums shake you and shake you again. the keyboard pokes you to dance. the guitars feul your essence. the vocals wrap around your head, let it sink in, and wait for your reaction.

there will be times where i'll think that i'll get sick of live music and go onto something else, but it never fails me. i'll always love it, everything about it. (well, minus the annoying crowds, i could go on forever about the different crowds, in fact i probably will sometime soon, ha.) i don't get this feeling from anything else (i know, not even alcohol!) and it's my feul for the interesting future i'm striving to achieve.

this is who i am and it's never going to change. and in this moment, i'm really happy about it.